May / June
Saturday, May 4
The fifteen-day campaign against Le Pen was completed. Sunday, Chirac would be given a new mandate for the first five years of the Fifth. Curious atmosphere of consensus horrified by the challenger to win the second round. Certainly, a Le Pen in France's Elysee would ban of Europe and indeed the world, but its function as a spur to political life seems beneficial. Cohabitation has shown that in any case was viable at the institutional level, but politically dangerous: the extremes are so full legitimacy to contrast with the undifferentiated at the head of the executive and legisla-tive.
As for protests against Le Pen, it seems a virtual challenge to the democratic system does not respond as expected by some people. Hatred does not come from one side.
Not the same political views with my BB but no matter, our relationship is sustained. Yesterday, sparkling evening with the couple and Bonny Eddy: friendship is confirmed.
[Email to Laurence H.]
Wednesday, May 15, 10:24
Subject: Important
Dear Madam,
I called you this morning, but you were unavailable, and this afternoon I can not call you .
After some weeks of consideration, I regret to put an end to my interventions in general education with pharmacy and White Barn Galen. I want to raise my thesis and letters I have spent my summer reading the work of the author studied. I can combine this task with the study of the works to students.
I was very pleased with these few years of collaboration. Convey my best memory of Mr. G. (I remain however available for possible interventions in the section Comenius-PERC.)
With my attention. Tuesday, May 21
Seen a few passages of the show It disgusts me denouncing criminals 
the road. A disgust you definitely human nature ... brainless pigs and bacon impunity: that the mutation that occurs in lambdas who drive. For anyone who causes death or irreparable injury, it would take two simple steps: translation before an assize court, not the corrections (it is a crime and not a misdemeanor) and especially the final cancellation of the permit with the impossibility it again. We must put these criminals out of harm's way: and there are tens of thousands in France. Obviously, not a politician has the courage to make such arrangements. It makes safe to reassure the good people (and probably rightly), but the ten thousand deaths a year on the roads do not deserve a great shot latte in the car lobby. It makes me puke!
few days ago, a dream (nightmare?) That northerners resumed contact for a new recruitment professional with all the anguish adjacent. Encouragement Elo by texting late afternoon. She spends her exams this week. His friend Jerome was assaulted in the subway, but I know no more.
I probably found (through a contact provided by Judith L. colleague Forpro of) my thesis for my research project on Leautaud. My dive later in the Literary Journal takes a stride: the fourteenth volume well under way. The period of the Second World War is far from monolithic Leautaud a collaborator or resistant. All of its analysis, its judgments to the punch and moods form a picture in chiaroscuro in which only counts his independence of mind.
Tonight, looking for a teaching book, I see large volumes of the Booker on Journal of Jules Renard, the three volumes of the Goncourt ... If I add those of Galtier Boissiere (I does not), Charles Juliet (loan - the flight. I - by Marie-Pierre C.) and Jacques d'Arribehaude ... I'm not ready to put me on reading novels! Soon
one in the morning and I must cause my sleep refractory
... If I could be more regular maintenance of these pages ...
Forgot to tell my decision not to renew my association with the Institute Galen. Spend my summer reading the works of medicines and pharmacies , instead of immersing myself in Leautaud does not seem wise. I offset the financial loss by a few lessons have me qu'Acadomia unearthed.
The U.S. Secret Service emphasized that a new wave of Islamist attacks threat. The U.S. operation to dismantle the networks involved no longer interested in our media as it is long term and not as spectacular ephemeral. A bomb would have been him, undoubtedly, more echoes.
Between my wandering mind and the sheet of paper, if irregularly blackened, a major loss. How many thoughts, feelings, impressions left to rot by literary laziness? Not that that will start the anonymity amplifies the years passed. Wednesday, May 23
Last night call Elo (full exam week for his first-year students). She says the proponents of the new embryo sentimental story. A friend of increasingly expensive as the Elo. Touching remember the first interview when the bus took us all to Saint-Cyr, but that we knew for the first course in French to give. This followed the enthusiasm human soul. Saturday, May 26
A Parmain for Mother's Day, after an afternoon of intense physical emotional release. Between tennis and ping-pong, the body has warmed up point.
Thursday, May 30, 1:50
Learned journalist's death not seeing Julien Prunet (?), At 29, who ran a daily column on France Info. Pinch in the heart of emotion and youthful enthusiasm for this ambitious cut short by the grim reaper ... fucking dead! What
pages blackened illusory contentment for what? Unnecessary literary babble remain anonymous. No chance that these kind of tiles, at least one hard posthumous me no more. I thought to career in writing, what windbag!
[Email to Claire D.]
Friday, May 31, 4:21 p.m.
Subject: Bravo!
A kind of slut you are! I am delighted with this outlook relaxation available to you ... after the hard work. And do you already know the countries that will have the pleasure to welcome you? And what kind of adventure you are planning?
For our interview, I hope that the week of June, you will still find my presence in Paris ...
And in Lyon, you are there these past months?
Curious, I am always curious ...
I sneak away. See you soon.
Monday, June 3
This weekend, my BB has performed with his choir and another came from Aix-en-Provence. Nice delivery. Our relationship continues in serenity. 
Elo really becomes almost a brotherly friend. She says more to me and seems to attach much importance to my advice. Leaving her home, Sunday afternoon, she told me that he wanted to give me all this because I am his closest friend, just like his brother. Very touching that this relationship takes this round.
After a short telephone survey (very fast) I found Aline L., to Paris for two years after her separation from her husband settled in England. I have dinner with her during my week in Paris, June 19 Tuesday, June 4
The Conflict 100 years?
Tonight, a Thema on the Israeli-Palestinian conflict and its two leading antagonists: Arafat and Sharon. The inextricable situation will one day lead to an agreement: still missing in humans, this ability to take distance from his own interests for a perspective of global interest.
The release, this morning, six auditors in BTS (the resource center to which I am Forpro) of Intimate Enemies builds on human nature and does not inspire faith in it. Escaping the collective excesses that make me sick, may explain my lack of commitment friendly to men, except when they become friendly companions prerequisites (if Eddy, love Bonny known single) . My tour
relational already raised more loads in an interview with Manon a drink this Thursday at 11:30 am at American Bar. She seems to have unearthed the great love, what delights me. More
contact northerners, and that relief.
Thursday, June 6
My literary landing in the countries of literary Leautaud Paul takes shape. Since yesterday, Mr Jean-Pierre (Henri Michaud specialist) is (not administratively) my supervisor. My goal
precise literary him on the pillow in the morning: to show and demonstrate how the Literary Journal is also the crucible for the elaboration, assertive and refined literary principles, moral , psychological and behavioral measures of a man of letters, and work literary life, whose consistency is not the result of an intellectual break, but the existential path of its author.
In the background, attempting to restore to the genre diarist throughout his literary value.
Project title The "Literary Journal" by Paul Leautaud: the melting pot at work .
Saturday, June 8, 2h ... checkmate. Seen
tonight Manon and her friend Samia, both adorable, first at the amphy, rue de Marseille, a bar where the son works for Ms. S., Pedagogical Director of Forpro and then into the apartment of an acquaintance celebrating his birthday. The gregarious nature of these environments still bothers me, torn between adaptation to the environment and the systematic. My programs
London and Paris are becoming clearer. In Paris, Monday through Friday noon, I will be delighted to find Dawn (four months pregnant), Elo F. (Who works with her sister throughout the month), Sabrina L. (Rambouillet), Aline L. and Vania C. (And the list is perhaps not close). Between these appointments friendly and / or emotional, I will concentrate on playing three theses devoted to one aspect of the work of Leautaud (his self-portraits, the question of style and a writer war, 39-45). Furthermore, I will test an initial contact with the library for access to the Doucet manuscript Literary Journal.
London in two days, I'll find Marianne D. B. (Not seen since at least three years), Manon again and J. Flo, the former Field's Tassin. Travel for less dense.
Haro on motorists!
The world of cars and motorists cretinization queen and potential criminals disgusts me more: the speeding in town, the lights grilled aggression unpunished, the inconsistencies may end up in human drama. All this reinforces my disgust nauseous. Sunday, June 9
Yesterday evening, still a very enjoyable night at Club 30 with Bonny and Eddy, while BB was performing his work bravely. Friendly and more emotional with this couple.
I did turn a damsel in morphopsychology very close to Elen, the face (including an impressive nose), chest puffed and a voice unsightly. Bonny has felt well and did not like this behavior gleaner of a sudden kidney.
latter two early afternoon, I climb two stories out tenderly and carnally BB sleep. Delicious. After
sense, the essence of literary Leautaud waiting. Legislative
first round today. Still not my voter registration card: no desire to join this very dull Mass. Republican.
Monday June 10, 11:50 p.m.
By early evening, call Sally to make some news, and above all be over expectations northerners. This time, demand for Heim's wife that I am present for Father's Day. She tells me after the abuses of Hubert son with respect to Heim, it does not want to leave her child at the castle, as his father "would violate" every little ones pass. Also learned that the magistrate would have crazy back in touch with Alice in an attempt to neutralize the risk facing his own attempt of sexual violence on her sister. Certainly, the sordid reign in these regions.
I obviously declined.
I wish them no harm, I will be present for exceptional situations (such as the funeral of one of them), but our paths have separated and the filial relationship is over.
Tonight, a television debate against Fabius Douste-Blazy. Towards the end, powerful intervention of Nicolas Hulot, who highlights the real priority issues for the survival of humanity. Suddenly, the two trade policies on national issues seem much rhetorical balloons. Just after the answers or thoughts on About Hulot, the journalist, according to a pre-programmed course, addresses the subject of football match France-Denmark the next morning. The short film about the victory of 98 and the current situation seems ridiculous and moved According to the fearmongering, but fair, N. Hulot. Go in the direction of good Pople : that the plague of political system where (as recognized by one of two elected officials present) elections on the horizon may correspond to the horizon environment, and yet it ' is that it depends on everything else.
Tuesday, June 11 The People's bullshit in all its depth with reversals of sentiment when the tide is turning.
Monday, June 24 A week in Paris followed by a weekend in London would not let me take care of the strong impressions, interviews and travels.
Side studious reading, more or less rapid, two theses spent Leautaud (Paris IV and VII): one on the style of the writer, the other on a slice of JL through its theme. I started this investigation at Paris III University by the discovery of a thesis entitled The writing days gender diarist through some special cases (curiously, Leautaud is not mentioned). With the laptop offered by Shue, I could apply directly to the passages and references selected. Through the Interuniversity ready, I will read four or five others on Leautaud able to better define the angle of my approach.
relational side, multiplication of friendly interviews. Dawn on Monday afternoon: four months pregnant, she has, during a luncheon Express (after a long walk to reach the Asian caterer), his companion of Greek origin who seemed half pleased to meet me. It seems to bloom, but this triangular framework has not allowed its usual effusion. Strange feeling to know that the speaker was my first love (Platonic-emotional nature), but not an ounce of jealousy. Rather an emotion due to the time spent.
the evening of Monday, dinner on the terrace height of Le Totem (discovered by Shue, at our first dinner in 1996, followed by a walk in intense mutual attraction) with ever more complicit Elo. Our friendship is very deep and very bubbly. A delight for me that this head-to-face inflamed, our rhymes and it gives me that confidence. I feel like a big brother emotionally.
The next afternoon I found the sandwich for a party with three young women working with her on the lawn facing the building that houses the Ecole d'Assas, collateral held by Elo.
Tuesday night I joined the Place de la Contrescarpe Vania C. TD girlfriend right in international relations and friends followed from the development of its various concerns (family, emotional and professional), I had somewhat neglected in recent months (even years). She reveals not otherwise have enjoyed at all levels of our last and very brief telephone interview: I laughed sarcastically after I confirm it is still accumulated evil of curves and assumed that the desert Sentimental lasted. Without doubt a large gourd psychological on my part. A very pleasant evening where I could pick up the thread of his troubles that persist in the above areas. Even this should make a positive note turns into nightmare as his purchase of 70m2 near the Rue Mouffetard, work that did not end last year and a half and neighbors who do not like the side effects of these interventions on the building. Her mother very serious phase of alcoholism, who bore him his pounds forever (although it has lost since our last interview) and a law firm that wants to escape (run by the media, but berserk, A. Benssoussan).
(To be continued) Tuesday, June 25
Wednesday evening, I found Aline L. overlooked since his marriage in 1997 or 1998, which lasted only six months. Lawyer in uptown Paris Avenue Hoche, she lives with a Quebecer. Great pleasure to see her try to get to know and establish a real bond friendly. 
We talk all the time high school and my haughty reserve in my other.
In London reunion with Marianne not seen for six years. She lives in concubinage Matt, burly English, and does not seem very optimistic about his relationship. Despite this, she went with him in September for a world tour over a year and a half. Visit the heart of the city and pleasant moments with them. Seen
Florence J. quickly Sunday psychological state very low after her recent break sentimental. She does not think her prolong facility after December. Wednesday, June 26
First weekend in Paris with my BB presented to mom, and my brothers John (Papa, Anna and the two little ones already know). Very good contact, it is appreciated by the whole family. I want it deeply.
Received a letter from Mary C., the young author of 19 or 20 years, a friend of BB's sister, who wanted to have an opinion on some literary news from a person knowledgeable in the field and do not know. She thanks me for having spent time on his writings and testimony, with a very fine intellect and maturity uncommon difficulties and disabilities caused. I feel a real bond could be born with it. I
revives the afternoon at Parc de la Tete d'Or. Lazing on the lookout for glances, volume XVI of PL traveled JL, and this notebook (laptop extra large) filled episodically. In front, two young mothers fumaillent with accents of not very feminine voice. This does not deter me for a furtive sexual smashes. One thin, brown, slightly exceeding the string at the back of his jeans (fashion coming from London) and the other blonde sensual, a little chubby, lets see a little white panties much simpler, but no less exciting to be removed. The thin, passing close to me to go say something to his son, has a piercing to his navel, belly flat. Objects of desire sex, I would bring them together well for a true all-out stoned. Although classic fantasy (sated timidly in 96 or 97 with Sander and Marilyn) who is still alive. Listening, I learn that the fine (much more feminine in her voice) is single, her eyes and her smile backed accomplice leave no doubt about his desire that I approach. I do not give up.
Tomorrow Thursday, June 27, starting with BB Arles, a romantic weekend with her sister. First swim in the summer horizon.
Go to the castle, the first weekend of August, I share: emotional attraction, but apprehension.
